Holy Shit....I Know Her!

I have literally waited my entire life, well at least 20 years, to stumble across a person that I actually know to be in pornography. Every time I would come across some new clip on the internet or some random photo that someone emails, inside I was always thinking what a thrill it would be if I recognized the person in the sex act. I don't think I thought much beyond the initial reaction that I would have, i.e. would my thrill quickly turn to disgust or judgement? I never (thankfully) considered what I would do if it were a relative like one of my many sisters. I just wanted to get that initial rush of OH MY GOD!!!! The fallout would come later.

Well, here we are in the fallout shelter.

Yesterday's weekly paper in Philly had a cover story on this 21 year old Asian dude who wants to be the next king of porn. It's a lousy article that basically portrays this guy as an idiot, but there was one interesting tidbit that made someone I know a little too curious. Apparently this guy paid 2 girls to have sex with each other on camera 3 years ago when he was 18 and made some money by selling his first "movie" on EBAY. The article recounts that he paid each girl $100 which they "needed for rent" and goes on to mention that they were Temple students. EEEEERRRRRRRR. It was at this point that my brother Dan put on the brakes and repeated back to himself, "Temple students?" Since Dan is on the verge of graduating from Temple, I guess you could say that curiousity caught the cat. The thrill of wondering if he knows these girls was too much for Dan to take and he decided to check out this Asian porn king's pathetic website to catch of glimpse of these deseperate chicks. What I don't think Dan was planning to see was his ex-girlfriend getting finger banged by some other girl in a dingy hotel bed. Adding to the creepines factor, the timeline suggests that this movie was made right after he and she went their separate ways. Yikes.

Having watched a little snippet of this movie myself, I can honestly say that I don't think I like the idea of knowing the participants. I had odd dreams last night about the whole situation and I know that my brother is wrestling with the idea that he once dated a "porn star" which for some can be a trophy and for others shameful. I can recall this particular girl at my house hanging out with my high school sisters, eating dinner at my folk's dinner table, being smart and funny and sweet. Even though the break up was bad, it was between brother Dan and her, my memory of her was just little things. Now that's all changed. I don't judge her, I just have a desire to hear her explain her actions. It's like I want her to be a freak who doesn't give a shit, not some confused girl that did something "cool" for the thrill or money or because she was drunk. But not knowing is the hard part. And I'm not so sure she's going to shed any light on the situation. Last I heard brother Dan sent a rather pointed email her way giving her the heads up that she is celebrity status this week in Philly, a city that she no longer resides in. I guess I'll never look at porn again and hope that I recognize the participants. I'll just look at the porn for porn's sake.