What am I doing?

I'm just about to leave SC for home and I'm thinking to myself, "do I want to come back here in a week?"

The people are friendly, but very different. I'm wondering if I can maybe find a wife down here? The girls are kind of cute with their short skirts and southern accents, but it seems like if the girl is attractive and made it out of high school she already has a baby or two and possibly an ex-husband. I'm talking about the 21 year olds too, not the over 30 set. It's quite the culture shock to be honest. Good news: The young ones like to fuck! Bad news: I'm not sure I want to be a stepfather.

The job is the same. I'm not doing anything more than I was at my old job, which is okay. I'm getting a decent schedule and the opportunity to just come in and do my job and go home. Suits me fine now, but long term I'm not sure what the point of moving is if I don't have any opportunity to grow. All my new co-workers (fellow management folks) know each other either professionally, personally or socially which further intimidates me. And demographically they are all older than me and have families of their own, something I don't have. In Philly I have peers and employees that I can get along with based on common interests, whether it be movies or music or humor. Down here, it's going to be a struggle to get people to even laugh at my jokes or know what I am referring to half the time. Good news: I'll be the guy who knows the most about everything! Bad news: Will I find anyone to have a conversation with?

At this point, it's too late to back out...so I'm coming down for a year no matter what. I'm trying to remain optimistic. I'm looking forward to coming home today...