I made it to Saturday. Thank goodness. This week was incredibly surreal and intense for many reasons, none of which I will go into on this here post. Considering that I don't know who reads this stuff anymore, I would hate to speak about things I shouldn't be. I'll just say that I had some serious challenges crop up at work that have made my life miserable and I've been working like a dog. But it's not all bad, there have been some work developments that are good too. Christmas time is always intense, but my company always tries their best to make you feel like you matter. So getting rewarded when the shit is hitting the fan just added to the surreal nature of the week.
Personally, I've been all over the map too. Constantly examining why I think the way I do about people. Grappling with the issue of love, connection and all that other shit. I guess for me I've just come to a conclusion that anything that is work in that department just isn't fun. So I'm just going to begin enjoying myself and not worry about things to much. I'll say that I have realized what it is like to have someone reciprocate feelings and it feels pretty fucking good. It beats longing for some chick that doesn't make a fucking effort. Ever. Maybe I'm moving into another stage of my life, one where I decide to commit to something, someone and stop trying to make things happen that just aren't possible.
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