Today I found out I have choroidal melanoma in my right eye. This after tons of testing, x-rays, massaging, prodding, eye drops and 3 plus hours of sitting in a doctor's office. Apaprently the mention to my family doctor of some spotty vision I was experiencing back in early January prompted him to make me a referral to a retina specialist. Here I thought I was going in for a routine eye exam and with my glasses breaking last night, I thought how perfect. No such luck. Instead, I got no prescription for glasses, and I have to wait two weeks to get an eye exam now, but an ultrasound that will be looked over with my x-rays to determine the severity of the situation. Yeah for me.
In the meantime, I grabbed some crazy glue, put my glasses back together with a skull and crossbones band aid as support on the corner and decided to look up choroidal melanoma. That should take the edge off of my allergies turning into a full blown cold of sorts the past 24 hours no?
Choroidal melanoma is a primary cancer of the eye. It arises from the pigmented cells of the choroid of the eye and is not a tumor that started somewhere else and spread to the eye. Malignant means that the tumor is a cancer which may metastasize, that is, spread to other parts of the body. Although some choroidal melanomas are more life-threatening than others, almost all should be treated as if they were malignant.
Fucking cancer of the eye?!?! For real? Guess I can't do anything but wait to see if it's malignant or not. It's not like it was something I could prevent. I asked. Just shitty luck is all.
For now, I am too busy sucking on cough drops and blowing my nose to worry too much about the diagnosis, but it did find it blog worthy. Much more so than So Notorious on VH1, which by the way is horrid. In my weakened condition I did not go to the gym today and I feel lousy for not going. Can't tell if that's a good thing or not.
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